A Simple Joy…that’s what I want to wake up thinking….I want to return to a life where the very act of waking up and thanking God for my existence is a simple joy that I deliciously dive into every morning as I once did. The last few months have been hard…..the last few years not my definition of joyful…slowly…one thing at a time I’ve let go of being who and what I hoped to be when i grew up….
Daily life is such a choice….and yet we so easily at times waffle and forget the very gifts and choices we do have….we allow someone else to set our standards, we choose not to develop our dreams…we allow ourselves to beat us up….and succumb to the very things we do not believe in.
Its funny. A friend recently asked each of us to list 10 goals personally, emotionally, spiritually, financially, and for our families. Ten pie in the sky or reach out an grab it goals that we would choose to be if we were defining and obtaining the life of our dreams….
and you know what?
For the first time in my 45 years….I could no longer find my 10. It was a true struggle to even list 3 in any area…my heart would come up with something and before I could even write it down my mind had dismissed it, disrespected it, or berated myself for even daring to dream it….
and that night I simply looked in the mirror and saw a very different woman than the girl I am….
to be continued….
